The Side Of The Road

The Side of the Road - Douglas W. Fielder

I pulled the car over and sat on the side of the road.
My head it was swimming, it felt like it might just explode……
Both hands were trembling and both eyes were clouded with tears.
I’ve never felt so alone in my 55 years.

Off in the distance, I heard church bells start to ring
I’m sure there is music or someone has started to sing.
With my eyes closed tightly I see them both walking the aisle.
And though there’s this pain in my heart, well I just have to smile.

What did I do to deserve to be treated this way
I didn’t feel that there was anything that I could say.
Here I am sitting on the side of the road,
feeling like my head is gonna explode
His mom’s there watching bet she’s crying too
Guess she is wondering just what I will do
Well, I wasn’t invited so I’ll stay away
still here I am crying on my son’s wedding day.

I always thought I had been a good dad to my kids
I never expected they’d ask me to leave like they did.
They never asked why, they only told me to go
There wasn’t anything more that they wanted to know

I look up to heaven and ask the good Lord to forgive
All of us here on this earth and these lives that we live
I ask for myself and I ask for my family too
What good is living if he can’t forgive me and you.

Well I ain’t no Devil and I sure as hell ain’t no Saint
I look up to heaven and ask him to hear my complaint
I may have left her but I didn’t cheat
I’m being punished with lies and deceit
They are all acting like they need some proof
They’ll find out in Heaven the truth is truth
I only wanted to go my own way
and here I am crying on my son’s wedding day.

I wish that I had tried harder and not walked away
I wish that I would have handled it some other way
But wishes won’t change it and I’ll have to carry that load
Now here I am crying just sitting on the side of the road

I am just sitting here tears running down on my shirt
I understand now just how much it must have hurt
All of those years as a family just fade away
And I’m sitting here all alone on my son’s wedding day.

What did I do to deserve to be treated this way
I didn’t feel like there was anything that I could say.
Here I am sitting on the side of the road,
feeling like my head is gonna explode

His mom’s there watching bet she’s crying too
Guess she is wondering just what I will do
Well, I wasn’t invited so I’ll stay away
Wish I could be there enjoying my son’s wedding day

I pulled the car over and sat on the side of the road.